How Kevin sees me ❤️

While Julian was playing on his iPad he started going through the photographs that are connected to Kev’s phone. I didn’t realize that ALL these photogroahs existed of not only me, but of me with my sweet babes. One of these photogrpahs is the first photograph of when I held both boys at once 🥹.

When Julian was finished playing on his iPad I had to air drop the images to myself. I needed to have these to look back on and cherish. And before anyone thinks that it’s the fault of Kevin for not sharing with me hold your horses because I know that when he took these images I hated them. That tends to be the pattern because I have body dysmorphia and most images of myself I have to have time apart from the moment they are taken to process how I feel. Kevin knows this because he has heard many times how I don’t like xyz, and that’s the problem with body dysmorphia, you really can never see yourself.

You need so much space and time to even appreciate yourself. I thank Kevin for taking photographs regardless, because these do mean the world to me because it’s how you see me 😘
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