\\Sam's Point//

Last weekend was full of lessons.  One was non-attachment; it seemed like Kevin and I couldn't catch a break. 

If it wasn't one thing, it was something else to make the situation not flow smoothly.   The last thing to go awry after what seemed like a weekend of struggles was when, Kevin and I were about a quarter mile from the end of our hike.  We were so close to the waterfalls at Sam's point when the clouds darkened and it started to thunderstorm.  I could feel Kevin's disappointment because I knew that he wanted me to see the falls where he felt like he stood on the edge of the world.  He just wanted to weekend to flow smoothly and there was a hurdle each day.  After some deep breaths and just surrendering the to the moment, I realized that last weekend was a lesson in non-attachment. We both needed to let go of the expectations that we had--because life doesn't know what we want.  

I did my best to brighten his spirits while it rained on top of us, on top of the mountain, but he was so bummed.  I figured and told him that, we for some reason were not mean to make it to that waterfall that day.  Can I explain why? No.  But one has to just let go and accept that was is and what isn't meant to be--

This lesson is a great one to carry with oneself. I'm currently allowing non-attachment to help me feel better about my current situation.  I'm allowing myself to let go of what I envisioned and I'm accepting what is best for me.  Just like  last weekend when Kevin and I had to let go of seeing the waterfall, and then surrender to hiking back to the car.

It took me a while to understand non-attachment, but I think as I live more mindfully it has slowly started to make more sense.  Non-attachment to me is a version of letting go; it's letting go of the worry or frustration before it happens. (well at least when one lives with non-attachemnt correctly the worry is gone before it happens! haha)  I find that I when I reflect I see and understand where I need to apply  non-attachment. I know that soon and with practice I won't have to be so reflective, and I can live more in the moment with out looking back and regretting anything--