April, 2020

April 2020 was a strange one to say the least--

It was the first birthday where I had to grieve the loss of a very good friend while taking care of babies just shy of a year old within a pandemic. It was strange because my birthday ended up being just like every other day, we couldn’t really go out (no one could), we couldn’t have family over to help with the boys. My parents were still in NJ and it was going to be until January 2021 that they would finally come down for good.

April will always be now a weird month for me—astrologically speaking it’s near the new year since Aries season preoccupies most of it. There should be a sense of rebirth and new and energy. I have to say most of my life I have felt that energy, however I am a person who never forgets a date and now April holds a date that will always bring some kind of sadness, and it’s very close to when I “should” want to feel uplifted.

This is all just a jumble of my thoughts but I know I need to take all this as a lesson in duality and balance—light, dark, life, death, beginning & ending.