Fall is around the corner and I can't wait.
Leaves change, the air crisps, and I wrap myself with warmth. Sweaters, scarves, and boots: a basic girls dream. I love having the option to take off my sweater if I feel hot. The light in summer is beautiful, I enjoy the green and yellows, but the transition into fall is one of my favorite times of the year. Hiking in the fall is one of my favorite things to do; I hope to explore many trails with Kevin again. Things are changing and I'm actually excited for once. I am my father's daughter because I'm reluctant to change; I usually don't like it. I am a woman of routine and when I'm finally comfortable I don't want that to feeling to leave. But I am growing. We are growing. I'm excited to look into the future and see the change that will happen. My leaves are starting to notice the sun's change in direction, and my colors will brighten. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________ These photographs are from when Kevin and I got a little carried away and hiked for what felt like FOREVER. We went to the "Giant Steps". It was chilly, but beautiful. I still have PLENTY of prints left over from Kulathon--if you like any of my work enough to have it on your walls please contact me :)
Email: [email protected] Or visit my etsy! Below are images I already have prints of--but please contact me if you find any of my others works interesting :) I went up to Brandon the weekend of August 8th for a wedding of two people I've known for a while--it was a wonderful union full of love and happiness. It was not your traditional wedding, and it was perfect. It was definitely their wedding. The music was lovely, the food was yummy, and it was so nice to see so many people smiling. I needed the time away. I needed to go up to Brandon VT because it only further instilled in me my desire to travel somewhere new; to start a new journey, to find a place that is calming a place I can settle with Kevin. Many things happened that weekend and there were many lessons taught to me--but the biggest one is letting go. I have to let go of my past, and only stare into the future. I cannot look backward, I cannot let my past hurt me or make me cry. I have to turn my back on it and continue to hold Kevin's hand as we walk into the future; our future. Their wedding only made me see what I want, and what I want is moment like theirs. I want to be happy. I want to have a wedding like theirs, small and quaint with happiness, laughter and a good mixture of friends and family. I want to move or live in a place like them, a place that inspires me and makes Kevin feel secure. My only flaw right now is my impatience. I want it so badly, that I'm not willing to wait, but that is what I must do-- I must wait, breathe, and know it will all be okay. (Below is the eye make-up I was able to do ALL by myself! I usually never wear make-up but I have gotten better at having fun with it; it is an art form. I am still very adamant though that all women are naturally pretty!)
This is a throwback to my abandoned series. It was during an emotional transitional time in my life. I was working through dealing with past relationships, current, and future relationships. I wasn't ready to accept the love that was being presented in front of me because I wasn't able to let go of my past-- Here is a poem associated with the series: I am the abandoned house.
Left behind--empty, forgotten. Once with: happiness, life-- memories. Christmases, friends--loves. Traces left; random artifacts; shattered glass. Imprints on the passing people. People find me; mementoes to figure out the past. Walls bare, the floors covered with dust. There used to be something truly beautiful. Only now a vacancy. A shell; an idea of what I can be, could be, should be. --- Sometimes you'll make it inside. Most times the front door will say: “NO TRESPASSING” Get away. Will it work? To get inside, you will have to work. You will need to find an opening, a window perhaps. What’s the saying? --- I’m not safe, for there is a reason someone isn’t here. You think you can see it—but only in your mind does it exist. I am left boarded up, with greenery—growing, hiding me from the street; circling me, hugging me, comforting me. My only comfort are the things a part of me, the plants growing between my siding, for they are the only living things left. The things that won’t go away. The life that is still growing. ![]() Another throwback post-- One of my first vacations in a long time was when I went to see Winter in Wilmington. I was so excited because I never really traveled south, and I was able to see a dear friend after what seemed like forever. I had so many things to tell her, I had so many plans in my head going down there--but of course the morning I went to work I sneezed. And it wasn't that sneeze because of dust. No. It was that sneeze that tells you "You're getting sick." I refused to accept my illness until we hit D.C. I couldn't breathe and we ran out of tissues in the car. I got all the remedies I needed and Kevin and I proceeded with our 10 hour night adventure. When we finally arrived at 6 in the morning we were greeted by tired but loving faces. I had an amazing time. The first day felt like spring. I was able to just wear a sweater outside; it was the best break from the Jersey cold. However, Kevin and I not only visited Winter, we brought it with us. The rest of our time there it was 30 something degrees, and Winter and I were sneezing and coughing in harmony. Although honestly, I wouldn't have traded that time for anything because it was a nice time. I felt so happy, and loved. Oh and there were adorable kitties to cuddle with us during our stay: Echo & Pandora.
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