Fall is tomorrow and I couldn't be more excited-- This morning I checked my weather app and saw it was going to be in the 60's today. So, I slipped on my sweater & very old pair of perfectly fitted UGGS; I was so happy. Nothing was in the fridge. The only things were left overs from the diner last night. We needed coffee, so I decided to make a grocery list in order to prepare my soup since I HAD to go to the store anyways ( I needed my full pot of coffee for my day off).I'm trying to get back into my healthy food living. This summer I got off track and ate too much dairy, too much fast food. My body feels unbalanced. But after eating all my greens ( I got a delicious salad after my hot yoga class ) last night and seeing the greens I made today, I'm happy to know I'm going to feel better inside and out hopefully sooner than later. Most people do spring cleaning--I guess I clean in the fall! I haven't taken a yoga class since May. Last night I finally stepped into a classroom; my studio's owner taught, and she did an amazing job. I know that yoga is suppose to be about letting go of one's ego, but her dharma talk really spoke to me. It was as if she was speaking to only me and guiding me back onto my path. This summer I felt like I took a different trail to get to the top of the mountain. In general it's not a bad trail, it actually has some beautiful sights, however it wasn't the right trail for me--on this trail I injured my knee and wrist ( I really did actually injure those things) and I felt like I was catching my breath constantly as I reached for the top. I saw an old friend and student last night and I'm still thinking about his advice. He's always the best at being straight with me; I try to "fight" him and explain my side but he's always right--I need to make sure I'm happy, because I'm always in control. And I have to remember that his advice is true, it is so true because we all are in control of our own happiness even when outside forces change our circumstance. I needed him to tell me that my summer was excuses not to practice; because I knew in each moment that they were excuses too. But saying that, it's always easier to know and to say than to actually do--it's hard to get on your mat after a 12 hour day outside your home. And the commute was an excuse not to practice or feel like "I'm too tired to practice" when in reality my body and mind were too tired. I do not live life with regrets. I feel that people can't live that way for regrets feed into the negative side of life. I'm glad I experience a lifestyle that was totally different than what I was used to or even expected for myself. It allowed me to fight to come back to life I know and love. The experience allowed me to understand my yoga students on a different level. I am now where most of my students are, and when I'm ready to teach I can be empathetic to their bodies. I am happy now. But I should have always been happy because it's my job alone to ensure happiness. (I feel like I'm super contradicting today) But that being said again, from mulling over my thoughts, allowin oneself to be unhappy can be the fire needed to get one up, get one started on a path that will cultivate more happiness. "Some days are just bad days, that's all. You have to experience sadness to know happiness, and I remind myself that not every day is going to be a good day, that's just the way it is!" --Dita Von Tesse Since I was 4, I was barefoot;
"Put some shoes on!" my mother's words chased-- summer was the time; to run, feel the grass between my toes, (I always came back with bleeding toes) rocks in the driveway ruined my fun "This is why you need to put on your shoes." but, I need that connection; I need to see green; I need to feel her all around me; she understands me. And I her-- I was blessed yesterday to be able to capture sweet little Kaya. My friend just gave birth to this cutie only 3 weeks ago. She's so tiny, and so sweet; her mom was able to prop and pose her, and little Kaya didn't cry not once. It was such lovely experience to work with the three of them; they made my job so easy! I hope that I can have the ability to shoot with them again or with other mothers and fathers. Thank you Betti and Mike! I hope you enjoy these priceless photographs :) Betti is also fantastic at DIY projects. She and her mom create these amazing crocheted items; toys, hats, boots, and they're all adorable. BUT Betti and Mike did a wonderful job putting together Kaya's room that I had to photograph it as well. It just looks like it could be a display in IKEA.
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