25 days postpartum

25 days postpartum.

I’m still trying to find comfort in this new body. My back hurts in multiple places all due to lack of strength in my core. My legs are sore from finally getting used to walking more quickly. My incision is numb to the touch. There are so many things I still cannot do that I could do before these babies and even during pregnancy. It makes me miss things that were as much as I am happy to have the things that are now: my sons.

I feel emotionally uncomfortable at times due to the size of my breasts. I feel self-conscious because I am not used to them being the way they are now. Some (most) tops aren’t fitting well, and I feel boxy and that I look much older. (Many people will say “no You don’t” but it doesn’t stop what I am feeling)

i remember a quote along the lines of being uncomfortable and it being part of the growing process. I know I need to see all
of this as a way to grow and become the mother I am suppose to be, but I always have to acknowledge the feelings first. I will start to remind myself to say “what is this teaching me?” Rather than “why is this happening to me?”