Interpreting the Cards

Scrying through Tarot is something that brings me comfort due to my racing mind. As someone who has anxiety I tend to see many scenarios of how the future will unfold, and many times the first couple of scenarios are not with the best outcomes. Therefore, when I'm finding myself in a situation where I feel I need an intention or I need some guidance I look to my cards.

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I remember when I was little I would come down stairs to my mother at the dining room table with cards in her hand and laid out on the table. My mother would be sitting there looking at the images with a pensive look on her face. Of course being a child of questions I would go up to her and ask "What are you doing?" and my patient mother would tell me as simple as an adult could to a child that she was just looking at her cards seeing if they could answer her questions--she would hurry me along so she could have her time to study. I've been enjoying how much I took in as a child with my mother’s interests. I do not think my mother assumed I would one day get my own deck and she would receive phone calls from me trying to figure out the meanings of the cards that I would one day pull, but it seems that intuitiveness runs the in the family.

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This most recent Celtic Cross reading had me diving into more in-depth symbolism of certain cards I pulled.

My heart of the matter was the 9 of pentacles--pentacles being the suit of worldly possessions and homes--which symbolizes a "happy and healthy home". I have pulled this card many, many times in past readings and it makes sense that this idea would be on my mind, because who wouldn't want a “happy, healthy home”?

The next card I pulled was the 7 of swords, a card at first look I knew it didn't have the best of meanings. This is a card I have also pulled a few times in my past, which sad to say that with its meaning of "deception and betrayal" I have experienced this card before. Of course my heart sunk a little with the idea that this card was the card that "crosses you for better or for worse"-- that this card would affect the idea of my "happy, healthy home." I needed to figure out a little bit more about this card, and luckily I found information about it. I found that this card is more of a warning than an omen. This card warns the puller that if you are deciding to be deceitful to be careful of how you may be doing it, for karma will come back around. In essence if you are trying to use a lie to better yourself think twice, even if it is a white lie. The other interpretation was to be careful of others in your life, and be mindful (again) of where a person's interests might be. With this information it started to make sense of where we are in our lives, and I felt a little better with this card being where it was, making our heart of the matter for better or for worse.

The Celtic Spread has 10 pulls, and I won't get into all of the ones I pulled but I will discuss the last card I pulled, the 5 of pentacles, in the position of "Final Outcome".

This card was a card that I have pulled a few times, and it has been in similar spots of the future in previous pulls. The meaning of this card in the shortest description is "sadness, illness" which is something no one wishes for in their final outcome (although a dear friend of mine joked with me that technically this card is everyone's final outcome, you know ''death comes to us all' haha). My heart sank (again). Was my "happy, healthy home" going to end in despair? Am I ever going to achieve my greatest wants in life? This was when I called my mother and my dear friend to discuss this card in this position. Through discussion and through research on what more does this card symbolize I found this description:

• In regard to this card being in the future placement of the reading "this is a warning from the Tarot Deck to not loose faith. The future will challenge you if the 5 of Pentacles is placed in your future position. But you can make solid choices now to be on the other side of that stained glass window. The 5 of Pentacles reminds us that life is a banquet and most poor fools are starving. Embrace the warm, joyous light that is on the other side of the window in the 5 of Pentacles. Knowing that times may be tough there is no reason to give up, in fact, you can actually work to create the joyous light depicted in the card's stained glass. This card lets you know that it is time to live your life instead of just trudging through it."​

​I realized while talking to my mother that the cards do not predict what will absolutely be--but it shows us what it CAN be--that we still have free will to make choices in the present that will affect out future.  

I learned a lot through this reading, more than I ever learned before.  I learned that I need to keep pulling cards and keep reading more about ALL the meanings behind each of them.  Lastly I learned that silver lining are true, and even when you get a card that seems like it is the worst possible one about you situation in life it is up to you, the reader, to make the most sense of it and to use it to make the best choices.

Today I pulled The Chariot: strong willed, triumphant. Everyday brings us something new to tackle. Yesterday I was meant to tackle some of my greatest fears with acceptance, and to remember to surrender to the universe because it’s a wave that we all get to ride along.